Gay & merry

Well as the world celebrates the legalization of Homosexual Act 377 id like to join the bandwagon in the celebration of those highly benefited by this law Hurrah.. In the end the love stands to win et all.. And i can go on at this pace about Gay rights & why one shd support it. But wait a minute.. As usual i have to put some of my own light on this subject: A more logical reason to support 377 & go against the act of God acc to some ppl
As co-incidence would call it I have always strongly stood for any kind of acts that are beyond the normal human acceptance from the time i have started having any understanding of humankind & Gay rights was definitely one i cant let go off just like that. For one it has given the human activists including a lot of youngsters to make a hullabaloo about the cliched Indian Law [refer to the pink chaddi ones in the previous post] and another its cool to support Gay rights & still not feel anything for them, as in practically. I mean seriously.. How many of us seriously feel for this. One cant get away by saying: 'Of course this is a free country & ppl shd be allowed to make free choices. & this includes abt their life partners too' Legalization & all is OK but would we accept our brothers & sisters as homosexual beings? Do you hear a 'No' from within? From where i can see its clearly a NO. Not many people actually support this but taking into account the actual number of protagonists for the same the Indian lawmakers had to finaly succumb to their wishes.
One can & has given arguments like its normal to have feelings towards the same sex as equivalent to the oppositeand all. I wonder Its just that Adam & Eve came together first as a matter of chance & since they had none other they had to make do with each other.. obviously their pleasure seeking part got the good of each other & now we see the expansion of universe into what it is today.


For all you know if there was a Adam1 & Adam2 or Eve1 & Eve2 .. the Adams would have got together & likewise the Eves & today we would be fighting to legalize for a Adam & Eve to get together. Imagine anti homosexualiy people proposing that a man & women getting together is against the act of God,. Jeeezzzzz.... Crazy. So ones things clear... There is definitely a need for an argument in war of sexes.


India is slowly & gradually moving towards it. The sped may be a little less but there is definite progress. The next time you visit India in 2050 we may see scandals like a one Shiney raping his housekeeper whose a male this time. Homosexuality would be cool by then because its actually really cool. We just need a mind blending concoction to get this straight in our head.


Lets try the concoction. But before we start blending Lets find out why are Indians so against homosexuality?
This whole universe & mankind has formed through the amalgamation of 2 sexual beings coming together & trust me it all boils down to the amalgamation. [read sex] & this needs to be proved SO:


1. The amagamation or love making of 2 homosexuals does not give any evidence of their love. as inn.. whenever there has to be love or the act of making love there has to be a visible outcome.
You mean visible enough for a world.? Eg: A child. A lot may disagree but think about it? We need to see the proof sooner or later. Indian society is still driven by laws which demand an outcome of sorts. Keep in place an Indian NORMAL bisexual couple. If they dont have kids after some years of their marriage there is a presumed reality that there is something medically wrong with them.For heavens sake... why do i need to prove my love to you? There are a lot of such proofs lying around isisnt that enough? And most of the time its the proves lust & not love.


2. The process of love making does not change. Its still the satisfaction through similar measures. [pardon me if u think this is pervert. but its true]
Yes because if they have to get pleasure the same way & with the same organs how does it matter? Who has scripted the process of love anyways? Kamasutra? I never restricted from trying aything new... If there is so much of a problem invent a new process of love making for for the sake of your sexual being. It might just help as a mind therapy. Gosh.. give them a break. They dont borrow your bedroom to makeout. Do they?


3. Most of the Gay men we know loose their masculine behaviour and have a larger portion of feminity to their personality. The lesbians i know are just weird!!! They just wont talk without touching. Gosh!!
Not all men are supposed to be macho & not all women are supposed to be feminine. SO go ahead & accept it. Love it. When a girlish guy can find love for himself why the hell do you have a problem?


4. Gays & lesbians are desperate to get in bed with other normal men & women. Its more about sex through similar measures again!
Nah... Il show you so many desperate men seeking women & vice versa. These are just desperate beings. Theyll exist with any sexuality. Whether the gays or the lesbians.


5. Its an act against humanity & Gods will.
Oh.. dont even say that... there is no scripted book on gods will or acts on humanity by god himself. & hello?? who god? With the multiple number of Gods that Indians have each one might have their own perception abt homosexuality. i cant go with nonsense 36000 times.


So now you know why its really cool to support an act of homosexualiy. Because its simply not harmful. LIVE ALL. LET LIVE ALL.


Cheers,
Sne!

Defiance is BliSs.....

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am!!


I just want you to know who i am!


Do you ever feel pulled between the societal barriers & self? Do you often have to face a conflict with yourself to do a particular thing even if you know you are right?


I don't think i can wear this and go out!! (simplest & insensible??) to I think India shd legalize Gay marriages.. (on a more serious)..
We pass through a host of such thoughts in our minds & hesitate to speak up most of them for fear of being rubbished by friends, society makers & people in general! We all want to loved & accepted at the same time!


Discussion down these lines with a friend led to him tell me this:
Quote: "There has always been a conflict between organization/societal/institutional structure and free will. An organization or a society is a collection of 'low-risk-low-return' people who herd themselves together for mutual benefit. People who (for various reasons) are not in that category are the obvious 'rebels' ... but they don't last too long. They either go mad (good), die (worse) or become 'low-risk-low-return' (worst) ... all equally inconsequential.


In my opinion (and this is just that ... 'my opinion') some people carve out a place where they can be at peace with both these worlds. And it is every person's own struggle ... to find this world within one's self." Unquote


I partially agree & disagree with him! Somehow i feel that everybody who rebels for their own cause may not always end up in deep shit ... I guess in order to discover your world and carve a place for yourself here, it is necessary to put up that fight.. Aint it?? Tell me...If i dont fight for my cause [whatever the cause maybe] who will?? If i dont get what i want who will? Most of these low risk & low return ppl often gang up together for mutual benefit because thats what they feel most comfortable with.


They probably cant face the nothingness inside them. They are all probably scared of the darkness that they might have to face.. Scared they might one day discover that they have chosen to write off their very purpose of existence on this planet... These guys also often conspire against the rebels because these are the people who make them believe that they [rebels] are not cowards like herd category and choose to take a different path...


Often these rebels can be categorized into 3 kinds...


1. The Follow me's:
The ones who love to control the herd [The bossy ones] These rebels are the ones that the herd is usually disquieted with. For eg: The Raj Thackerys or the ram senas... those types.. :D or the likes... [Did you see mumbai the day Thackery striked?? They were all inside their homes.. so early... The highway was goddamned empty at 7 in the evening.. I was so surprised/amused... :)] The Follow mes just have a little more than needed confidence, a little more than needed monetary power & a little more than needed contacts which makes it enough to misuse the power.. They love bossing over the herd.... and all they are concerned about is their personal benefit! But actually they are the biggest cowards.. A comman man. [low risk - low
return] types is probably aware of his negligible powers and that he is leading a life which does not make much sense.. but the follow mes have a motto - so let me either follow them - so i have a cause to look forward to - (though worthless) - or else even worse - criticize them behind their backs & silently run home for safety when terror strikes!
A lot of these low risk- return who aspire to be the wannabe Follow mes are ready to do almost anything for their masters in order to taste success! The follow mes are encased by a completely different energy.. deriving pleasure at the cost of the herd, frequently massaging their ego with the aspiring wannabes... !!


2. The pink chaddi campaign types...


The Consortium of Pubgoing, Loose, and Forward Women have unleashed the Pink Chaddi campaign against the Sri Ram Sena.


Who rebel a rebel... These people are actually the people who belong to the 3rd category of rebels but often accept their existence as being a part of the herd. Its just sometimes that the third category rebel strikes within them & gives birth to a pink chaddi campaign... It was an interesting idea but according to me it did no good...Just pangs.. They come.. they inflate matters.. become renowned.. and then they are gone...back to the herd.. back to acceptance.


3. The Lonely travelers:


The rebels who prefer to live on their own ideologies - These are the ones who are not affected by the opinion of the herd and neither do the raj thackreys deter them.. Tell me, why shd the third category meet the same fate? These guys are probably the Oshos, The ayn rands..or the like or the types... i don't mean all philosophers but ya, different.. ones not scared.. not the part of the herd & still a part of life & society...
Ones who can talk abt sex, women rights, male chauvinism, gay rights, child prostitution & get away with it...
Even if they are initially accepted by the herd eventually they problems do pop up in one form or another... problems due to non acceptance with the travelers... They do not like the path travelers have chosen..
Apparently because they wish they were also lonely & happy to be traveling that way!
The travelers are very few in no.. [so the herd is of the opinion that they can probably be crushed over] and most of the times quite accessible unlike the Follow mes or the Pink chaddis... The herd do not deter their thoughts simply because they are apathetic to their actions/reactions & also because is nothing that is small minded about them..They either be written off as weird, eccentric, irritating... usually the titles which make them happy or their behavior is eventually accepted by the so called herd as a change in the being which then again becomes a norm..
And then there is a re - birth of another rebel... ;)


So, which category do you belong to??? .... ;)


Cheers,
Sne!

Heart Rulez

A friend aspiring to get into one of the B Schools asked me to help himout with his essay writing business for entrance exams. One of the topics that caught my attention was 'Heart has reasons of which the reasons know nothing of' This ones especially for you, Ankush:


We almost always find ourselves stuck in moments where we have to make a choice - between the voices of brain and those of the heart. The fight continues in one way or the other and we continue to drag ourselves with it often listening to the voice of our brain and ignoring the heart chiding it to ask you to do what you really want. The voice that you actually want to act upon but do not do so as you are grounded by the societal pressures and have to put on your mask to maintain your image. That image - the liars image..
William Arthur Ward had once said:
Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you.
Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you."


I seriously wonder why ppl make an attempt to curb the voices of their heart??
A heart feels, a heart knows, a hearts understands... It’s not just that one organ in your body that ensures to keep you alive. It’s the organ that helps you look at life closely. It helps you feel emotions and helps u live through numerous experiences in life. It helps re-live all your memories. It helps you age gracefully and remember the best moments in your life fondly. It knows when the perfect love comes by.
It understands your pains..
It’s emphatic...
It decides unselfishly..
It’s the one that beats....
every moment... to keep u alive to make sure you live life...
I often keep wondering ...


I usually make a very good first impression. I use my brain while talking to people i meet for the very first time. When i start to get comfortable with those people my heart takes over.. I feel weak.. Some sort of Achelles heel weakens methat takes advantage of me. As i start getting more and more comfortable with people around me my brain is in total control of my heart.. I start to loosen up... start to reveal things... Many a times those which i shouldnt be revealing.... All the while knowing that they are exploiting me, I remain calm, well poised and cheerful but disappointed and deeply hurt from within.... I seriously do not know why this happens...
Sometimes it’s difficult to understand the co-ordination between your heart and mind. They don't seem to be working on sync with each other... It’s something that tears you apart. The heart looks at life in a different light altogether. The brain looks at the practical side. But it doesn't look at the practical side when the heart is taken over and i am gallivanting with strangers revealing the so called trust my eyes are blinded with... It looks at the immediate profit. It reasons out only when i am stabbed... Bang... welcome brain!!! Hello practicality.. Hello wisdom of all earth... [Hello.. where were you when heart was wandering and wasting away??]
Don't you know?? The heart never was made for logic... It cannot understand logic. It was never developed for that purpose. So it kept doing its duties... brain is the traitor... I don't know if there exists a person whose brain and heart works in sync and is consciously aware and happy about the functionalities of the two.
The bible maintains that is a acute relationship between the two.
It says that you are supposed to love God with all your heart.
That’s obviously a figure of speech. If you are going to love god with all your heart it is obviously going to have a place in your mind… not in your heart.


When you tell your wife or girlfriend that you love them with all your heart.. What you really mean is that they are consuming your mind and you are mentally focused on them… isn’t that right.


So what is actually functioning at that time?? The heart or the brain?? Love from the brain ?? While its important to feel your emotions closely you cannot ignore the practicality of the situation. Boy am i confused or what??


A heart can be unreasonable sometimes. It makes you react on the basis of your innate raw feelings.
It makes you jealous,
it makes you happy,
A heart can tell you that you would want to a millionaire but the brain understands that it’s not possible with the current employment. And that’s when a compromise comes in practice.
Each organ is made for a different purpose. It’s like a husband and wife –living together but functioning differently. What’s important for both of them is to save their marriage. It’s important for this pair to live in harmony so that it does not lead to a divorce. In another words a nervous break-down for our dilemma right now.
Hence a heart may have it reason which a reason may not understand but since they have to live in harmony and keep a person from exploding I guess they have to function together , yet differently.


This write up has been edited for the blog but a raw and a much more brainy version of this essay has won Ankush an interview call. :0)


Cheers
Sne!!

The Bloody Hell

Its been 48 hrs now since the terrifying attack on India and the rescue operations still continue!
Explosions and fire continues at Taj, though the operations at the Nariman house and the Trident have seemingly come to an end. The approximate dead body count has reached a whopping 150 and the official count could be much more. The news channels are flashing all the possible rubbish - most of it true and the rest fake and the citizens of Mumbai continue to struggle back to their normal lives amongst all this. The Mumbai man surely has a personal disaster management strategy handy though the government India hasnt been able to draft one for herself, I am sure.

There has been a hell lotta hullabaloo by the so called national leaders passing political statements and huge paparazzi by the media making a great attempt to keep the citizens of India aware of the events second by second!! Ironically our national leaders seem to have a lotta strategy for disaster control after the terror has struck. There is a lotta talk about the strict measures to be taken in future and the compensation to lost lives.
Though there has been a genuine effort to fight this at the cost of the Mumbai bravehearts like the ATS cheif, the encounter specialist and Vijay Salaskar, the NSG commandos and the local policemen who lost their lives in order to shield ours. Let us also not forget the media who is making a very brave attempt of giving us the live coverage of the terror. I salute each and every human being involved in these operations.

And wait a minute there are something amongst all this that i wish to bring to notice. Its important and its important to hear it at this time.
Where has the Marathi Manoos hid himself amongst all this??? Why the fuck is he so silent when its today that Mumbai needs the biggest help and support!! How he claimed of the Maajhi Mumbai.... is now only bothered about Maajhi(me) now. Bull shit!!! Freaking... Fucking.... Bull shit!! Today when Mumbai is in terror India has summoned the NSG commandos from Delhi. Dint he protest this time??? I seriously wish i could throw him inside the Taj where he would see what is actual terror face to face and feel his own piss passing down his own pants. He freaking deserves it!! I seriously feel that his supporters now realize that its the India that matters and not his ideology of a freaking Marathi Manoos.

Somehow it seems rather convenient to clean the floor after the milk has been spilled than actually protecting the same from happening. I do not mean to criticize the Indian defense, but I am just so surprised that are we so engrossed in the concentration of nuclear power & economic stability with international recognition that any fucking men infiltrate the borders of our motherland and and claim so many lives that puts her on frontpage of all the existing news papers in the world in 15 freaking hours?

This had led to a lotta anger amongst the common man who does not know whether he would be shaking hands with death when he gets out of the house today. I have always loved Mumbai for the city that it is and have always vouched for its spirit. Even as the south Mumbai remains seized the rest of it continues to work and regain its normal life immediately. Are we just born resilient or what?? Do our schools train us to get up after every hit to prepare ourselves for the next disaster.!! Damn... arent we scared???Seriously what are Mumbaikars made of???

As i sit back on my bed and draft this blog my mobile vibrates.I immediately grab it and pick it up and guess who is it??
'Get Reebok sports shoes worth Rs. 2690 now for Rs. 1300 using ur ICICI bank credit card. TnC apply'
Imagine if you were stuck in one of those god forsaken places and you got this message? Wouldnt you feel like sueing the bank?
Can u beat that??? That is Mumbai and Mumbaikars for you.... While i sip some coffee in my room and letting the disastorous TV sounds fall slightly on my ears as i draft this shit I give out a hearty laughter. 'Oh yes i do need good Reebok shoes to run incase i come face to face with terror'
People here make serious efforts to resume their lives. They feel bad for their fellow brothers and pray for them in their own silent ways and let the show still continue. Yes, This happens only in Mumbai.
People had resumed their early morning walks on the marine drive and were curious enough to come there and take a look as to what are the latest developments. Most of these early mongers include senior citizens, youngsters and dog owners. All this is but an attempt to regain back to normalcy.
Be it the disastrous floods, the local train blasts or the Operation Tornado this time a Mumbaikar is ready to forget his worries and back to his normal life to earn that daily bread for his kiddies.
As i salute the spirit of Mumbai and wish that this spirit never dies i make an appeal to our national leaders that its time they have a articulate defense startegy in place to protect our motherland.
Jai Hind.

Regards,
Sne!!

I Love to Love

æ         I love it when he knows exactly when to kiss her and the she is totally confused whether kiss or not until his lips touch hers.

æ         I love the hopeless romantics...

æ         I love it when a her sandals break while walking and he removes his shoes just to give her company

æ         I love it when he goes grand just to propose to her even when she’s already said a yes.

æ         I love it when they dance together occasionally.. U know the slow ones... sometimes in public too

æ         I love it when the he cooks her the Sunday morning breakfast...

æ         I love it when they celebrate first day they met even after being married for 30 years

æ         I love it when sex is wild.... sometimes... animalistic ... raw and passionate

æ         I love it when she takes the initiative

æ         I love it she defends him in front of her brother and father when she knows he is right

æ         I love it they out at 2am for a drive to some place nearby just because they found some element missing

æ         I love when they break rules ....for love

æ         I love the songs... when they hv words like "there's a lil bit of me.. In everything in u"

æ         I love it she tells him that i hate u because i love to kiss u.

æ         I love the pastas and the pizzas when shared ... well u know how... ;)

æ         I love it when she looks at him in the midst of a group of 10 friends just to say she loves him through lip movement and he reciprocates…

æ         I love it when a he lets his son play with dolls along with Gee-i-joes...

æ         I love i when he picks up a copy of Cosmopolitan.. well you know... just to read...

æ         I love it when the she breaks [completely] into his arms...

æ         I love it when a he takes his mother in Law for a drive for some grocery shopping..

æ         I love the sex after a long gap

æ         I love it when a he enjoys shopping with her .... and does not crib in the end

æ         I love it when they have dinner with the TV shut

æ         I love it when the they fight over one quilt while sleeping @ night

æ         I love it when she takes interests in games, bikes & cars just to strike a conversation with him.

æ         I love it when shes thinking of him all the time & breaks into smiles in the midst of 5 ppl.

æ         I love it when she wear his Tee Shirt & climbs on him & he finds out theres absolutely nothing beneath it

æ         I love it when they are in the same room, doing nothing but enjoying each others presence

æ         I love it when he opens the door for her after a very tiring day & holds her into his arms

æ         I love it when they place occasional kisses on each other’s lips while talking        

æ         I love it when they fight over that stupid TV’s remote

æ         I love it when she stands on his foot & they fall off while walking

æ         I love it when they cook together

æ         I love it when they laugh uncontrollably over stupid nothingness

æ         I absolutely love to love....

Endless dreams

Its been long now... and i have longer to go...
I have tried hard and failed a many times
Strip across the mind
Talk to the naked self
Where did i go wrong
It all looked so perfect

And then one day
They announced the results,
The winner's name was not mine
They did it to me again this time
I tried to smile
"Congratulations", I said
Not an ounce of happiness, but jealousy i felt

The eye lashes desired to kiss
The heart fought for too long
But force inside was too strong
The heart could not defend his eyes
Injured, it was now heavy
As the lake water gushed into the sea
Oh pity, what a sight to see
The heart finally lost
But its ownself, it sought

Enemies ahead
Enemies behind
Lest they remembered the human kind
Its not the dreams realized
But those that were crushed
"Leave me Alone" I screamed aloud
And eventually ill give you right to kill me
Because, the silence kills more

No logic would suffice
The twisted tale might never end
The winner was the winner and the looser lost again,
I have to now sleep & dream
Because those crushed will be re built
I have come long enough... I will go till the end..




No more words left...

Cheers
Sne!!

In a moment

It was a beautiful day,

We were just the two of us,

And not even a word to say,

The usual talks were as if vanished,

Silence had kept the two of us banished,

Knowing not how to begin,

My head was rolling in a spin,

I felt I was loosing control,

Or had I lost on a whole.

He stepped forward in my direction,

I discovered in me a cultivating new edition,

My heart skipped a beat,

But I had somehow started to like this meet,

His next move was unknown,

The soul from my body was as if flown.

I couldn’t describe how I felt,

His touch made me melt,

I surrendered to him instantly,

And found my whole self in him fluently,

His arms felt the most secured place,

My love today had acquired a new base.

I felt drunk without wine,

The drowsy effect in me was his crime,

But the culprit would not be punished,

As a new beginning it had flourished,

This brief moment of love,

Made me feel like I'm in a bliss,

Now in life I have no further wish,

But to be forever his!!

This was written by me on Jan 14, 2002. Thought I'd put it here!!!

Hope you like it.

Its one of my favorites. A little kiddish & very naughty.

Cheers,

Sne!!